We got into the doctors office and after a brief question/answer session, he began doing an ultrasound. He said 8 weeks may still be to early to hear a heartbeat with the doppler. The monitor was facing him, and I could see a somewhat concerned look on his face. He told me "Now I'm going to turn this around, I don't want you to be alarmed..." immediately my heart sank and horrible thoughts entered my mind...what is wrong, is there no heartbeat, no baby, WHAT???? Then he said..."I see two!" My response, I think was "two...BABIES?!?!?!" After questioning him a few times with "are you SURE?" Jason and I just looked at each other in disbelief and laughed!
The rest of the day was a haze, we were in complete shock! We had very little sleep that night and we've been on an emotional roller coaster ever since! We have been doing tons of research and getting really excited about everything. I would say, we are mostly excited with some nervousness thrown in here and there. I thought going from 2 to 3 was going to be rough, we were going to be outnumbered, but 2 to 4 just sounds insane to me! I try to remind myself that the Lord never gives us more than we can handle, so I must trust that I'll be able to handle this!
I am praying for many things these days, patience being number one! Other things that make the list...that I can carry these babies for at least 37 weeks, that I can avoid bed rest so I can continue to take care of Kate and Blake, that the babies are healthy when they are born, that I get to take them home with me from the hospital when I am discharged...I can't imagine the heart ache I would have if I had to leave one or both of them! I am also praying that they are GOOD babies, happy and content and good sleepers! Is that too much to ask?
Here are the little peanuts at 8 weeks:
Here's my tummy at 12 weeks, I swear I started showing at like 9 or 10 weeks, RIDICULOUS!
We truly are very excited and feel so blessed and humbled to be able to welcome two sweet new spirits into our home at the same time. We just can't wait to meet them both!
3 comments:
You look AMAZING! And I am shocked too to hear you are having twins- I don't know why, it's just crazy to me!!! SO HAPPY for you though!!! :D !!!
Ah Megs! Love ya so much! We are praying for all those things too. You are so right about the Lord not giving you more than you can handle. I felt like I was going to just explode and dissappear into tiny pieces when they informed me about Lilia's heart. It seemed, and sometimes still is, so overwhelming. But we have been so blessed, and SHE has been so blessed. The Lord works in mysterious ways, and sometimes demonstrates an odd sense of humor, and those times are when some of the biggest and most precious blessings come to us. Love you guys and talk to you soon! Give those sweet, beautiful kids hugs for me!
So exciting, can't wait to meet them and come and help out!
We'll see if I can hold both in the middle of the night so you can sleep!
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